After years of trying to date, I realize that I have started second guessing myself. I will accept a date, and go into it with the same hope that it will be decent at the least and the most. Not expecting fireworks any longer, not waiting for butterflies. Just a hope there will not be any indecent touching, or inappropriate comments about my looks or attributes.
Each new invite and acceptance to enjoy a meal, a coffee, or a walk about is a lesson in humanity. None of us is perfect and everyone is unique in their own right. It is so elusive to find that one other person that compliments our own uniqueness. Most of the time there are at least one or two commonalities that can tie the two of you together at least for an evening. Providing each one is polite, and tries to inject some humor too to keep the evening fun.
I have recently been on a few dates with a man , and now I am picking it all apart to see if there are any deal breakers or if there are more pro's than con's. I need to know that I am being sensible and not just letting emotions rule my behaviors. I am second guessing myself and am not so sure my "picker isn't broken" . I say I want a partner again, I wonder if I tend to find something wrong with every man I meet as a way of protecting myself from hurt. These are valid issues I know I am not the only one dealing with it.
I am not going to end anything, I am hoping to watch and see if this new dating situation is what he says it is. Actions do speak louder than words!!!
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